Merry is May-time, and merry our meeting.

This week's Geek Physique activities, Bokken Aikido and YogaQuest, were a tremendous success.  There's something wonderfully satisfying about wielding a wooden sword and practicing thrusting and chopping at someone with it!  It was a much larger group than I expected to see, so apparently I'm not the only one who feels this way about those swords.

At YogaQuest, we started "season two," embarking on an entirely new adventure with the group.  We had a decent turnout for that, although several of our regulars were not in attendance.  Despite the smaller group, we had a fantastic time.  The storytelling was top notch, and the creative, clever ways our YoGeekie (aka yoga instructor) translated yoga poses into the story was delightful and lighthearted.

I don't believe I've ever laughed quite so much at any of the previous YogaQuest evenings -- partly, I think this is due to the nature of the story and the particular geek fandom it indulged, and partly, I think that may be due to the increasing familiarity and comfort of the group as a whole.  Last week, we completed the first eight-week session, and now we've begun this new session.  Perhaps it took us this long to truly relax and trust one another, and to begin to forge deeper ties. 

Spring rambling

Neil Gaiman has lost some weight, and kindly blogged about it.  I can't say I'd necessarily opt for Dickens, but I like the general idea.  Of course, what he's doing is probably very close to what I'm doing... exercising, and trying to find ways to engage the mind in something else entirely while so doing.  I heartily approve.  I'm glad to see him taking care of himself, as he's one of those people I'd like to see around for a good long while, cranking out new and wondrous things for me to read.

I'm still plugging away, but took several days off last week after a rather ill-advised encounter with lugging and assembling nearly 200 lbs of IKEA merchandise.   I spent the week rehabilitating my aggravated back, and trying not to go utterly bonkers.  I had to skip YogaQuest last week as a result, but was back in action this week, and was there for the final installment of that quest.  Next week, a whole new quest starts, and I'm eager to see what new adventures lie ahead in May.

Another new activity for me in May will be Bokken Aikido, in which I will be given a wooden practice sword (which will be mine, all mine! and I will love it,  and squeeze it, and call it George!).  I'll learn the appropriate Aikido moves, and generally go all warrior princess on my classmates.  I'm very excited about that prospect... yiyiyiyiyi!

One other thing I'm contemplating is archery.  There isn't anything offered through the nerd group that hosts these other activities, but I'm thinking I will look into my options in the area.  I know there are some archery ranges at some of the parks around here, so I'm thinking I may just get a practice bow and arrows, and go out and play around for a bit.  I took an archery class in high school, and loved it, but haven't done anything with it since then.  It's a completely nerdy thing for me to want to pursue, and yes, I think it's part of my tendency to pick Ranger personae in RPGs, but obviously, I've outed myself as a gigantic geek already, so it's not like I can make it worse by going there, right?

I leave you with this, as I struggle to remind myself that I love trees.  It's their pollen I detest.  The trees themselves are lovely... they've just made my sinuses very, very miserable this week.

Where many paths and errands meet...

I'm spending a bit of the day with this Tolkien Ensemble album of songs and poems from the Lord of the Rings.  If you haven't heard it before, it's well worth checking out -- very pretty arrangements of beloved and familiar words.



Sundays are lovely days for catching up on things, and for letting things slide.  Today is exactly such a day... a day to do a few neglected tasks, ride my bike while spending a bit of time with a warrior princess, and perhaps finish reading Gentlemen of the Road.  It's not a terribly lofty plan, but it is eminently appealing.  I spent my entire Saturday playing D&D, so a bit of manual labor and exertion followed by quiet, solitary pursuits is just what I need, to make this weekend feel truly weekendish.

Strider

"All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost."--J.R.R. Tolkien 

 

Generally, it's easy for me to sidestep the snares laid by the "easy" enemies of our popular culture.  I can quite readily sneer at magazines and "reality" television shows.  It's something else entirely to confront and explore the shadows in myself, to catch myself straying from my path into all that crazy-making number crunching, and somehow navigate my way back out of that.  Those numbers, diminishing from week to week, are voluptuous and decadent in their own way.  They murmur to us, with words fraught with meaning and hope, and they tease us, sometimes skittering in entirely the wrong direction.  How much we invest in the utterances of the great oracle on the bathroom floor!

 

A year ago, my cholesterol and triglycerides were high, and my blood pressure was edging its way up there, as well.  My doctor made some recommendations, none of which were terribly innovative or surprising.  After finally implementing those suggestions, I was interested in seeing whether I'd managed to effect any appreciable change in my bloodwork.  When I received my test results this week, I was pleasantly surprised to see significant changes for the better.  

 

I've spent a couple of days thinking about those numbers, trying to find a way to express what I'm feeling about them.  I've never had occasion to feel inspired or excited about something like my cholesterol, or my blood pressure, but these test results have seized my mind in a way the scale can't touch.  Certainly, I can cite a previous weight, and my present weight, and demonstrate that I have in fact lost weight.  But... despite that progress, I'm still a long way from my as-yet-elusive "goal" weight.  But my blood pressure?  It's lovely.  My cholesterol?  Gorgeous.  Triglycerides?  Well on their way to being a work of art!  And the great thing about these numbers, versus the numbers of the scale, is that they are not remotely tied to my vanity.  It's highly unlikely anyone will write sonnets about my delightful cholesterol and triglycerides, nor will wars be fought over the beauty of my blood pressure.  These numbers don't announce themselves to the world as do those of the scale or tape measure.  They just inhabit me, quietly going about their business, doing what they do.

 

There is a vast wilderness ahead of me.  I have miles, and miles, and miles to go, but for the moment, I am content to bask in the priceless treasure of a realization that my course is not determined by a scale, and that, though this gold may not glitter, it is still precious (oh ho ho, noooo, not Precious).  I've done something wonderful for myself, in choosing to undertake this journey.  My body is responding to the choices I'm making, not just by fitting into smaller clothes, but by functioning as it should.  I have tangible evidence of improved health.  My journey is becoming clearer... it is so much greater and more life-affirming than simply trying to "lose weight."  The treasure that awaits at journey's end is already in my grasp.  Set aside the focus on losing, and embrace in its place a focus on gaining -- gaining health, and wellness, and strength, and fortitude.

A New Road...

"Still round the corner there may wait

A new road or a secret gate,

And though we pass them by today,

Tomorrow we may come this way

And take the hidden paths that run

Towards the Moon or to the Sun." -- J.R.R. Tolkien

Last fall, I turned forty.  It is no great feat to find oneself examining one's life upon such a milestone -- it is well-trod territory, I know.  Still.  The universality of this experience, this rite of passage, does not diminish the significance of my own encounter with forty.
 

I've spent the better part of my adult life struggling with my weight.  Well, I suppose that's not entirely true -- for the last twenty years, I mostly surrendered to the current of weight gain, and allowed it to carry me downstream.  As a child, I was athletic, and very active, but during my teen years, a back injury shifted my entire approach to life, and I gained a lot of weight (over 100 pounds) very quickly.  Pictures of me over the years have shown me at a variety of weights, sometimes as high as three hundred fifty pounds, but never under two hundred pounds.
 

A few years ago, in the process of divorce, I made some changes, and began to lose weight.  I made a few changes to my diet, but mostly focused on increasing my activity level, which helped me to manage my mood as well as my metabolic function.  I lost approximately 100 pounds.  Then my mother died, and I allowed that loss to distract me from what I'd been doing for myself.  A few pounds crept back on, but I was mostly able to maintain my weight.  (It's interesting for me to think about how the loss of my marriage motivated me to get active and eat better, but the loss of my mother stopped me in my tracks and made me crave the comfort of her cooking -- lots and lots of it.)
 

Now I'm forty years old.  It's been a couple of years since Mom passed away.  I've moved on with my life.  At the end of December, a friend of mine expressed some concern that, at my present weight and with a relatively sedentary lifestyle, I was unlikely to live to see fifty.  Whether that is accurate is debatable, but that's really beside the point.  In years past, I might have reacted with defensiveness and hostility, but for some reason, I didn't throw up that familiar old wall.  I listened, and I took those concerns seriously.  I realized then, nobody else could do this for me.  This is something I alone have the power to change.
 

I made a promise that day, to myself and to my friend, to exercise at least 30 minutes every day in 2011.  I have a recumbent stationary bike I ride at home.  In January, it was a challenge for me to get to that 30 minute mark without taking breaks.  Now I can ride for 45 minutes at a time, usually while watching an episode of "Xena: Warrior Princess" or "Doctor Who" (Netflix has a wealth of appropriately inspirational nerd fare for me to watch while I ride).  I'm working on expanding my routine to include a number of other activities, and have been helped in this regard by the discovery of local, nerd-oriented fitness group Geek Physique.  I'm a weekly participant in their YogaQuest activity, an innovative approach to yoga, which combines the physicality of yoga with the storytelling and role-playing mindset of Dungeons and Dragons.  T'ai Chi classes start this Friday, and I am eagerly anticipating "bookending" my work weeks with Geek Physique activities.
 

Each of these new activities is a new road, a secret gate, that leads me to greater discovery of myself and my potential.  Every day in which I incorporate my choice to pursue the enjoyment of physical activity is a day of adventure, a day of heroic quests, dragons slain, riddles solved, and treasures obtained.  Like Samwise Gamgee, I'm discovering that the heroes of the great stories were not people who found themselves in great peril and turned back.  What made them heroes was that they kept going.  My quest may not require me to carry Frodo up Mount Doom (sniff! sob! weep!), but it does require me to leave the comfort of my own Shire, and start trudging the wilderness myself.  It requires that I get up and move -- like I'm being pursued by Ringwraiths, or outrunning my past as a vicious warlord (with my faithful bard sidekick, yiyiyi!), or racing toward the TARDIS before it leaves me behind.  It requires me to hold fast to a commitment to myself, to value my health and well-being, to cherish my growing ability to actually DO things that require stamina and flexibility, to nourish my body so it can carry me along those "hidden paths that run towards the Moon or to the Sun."  
 

So, if you're feeling the call of years, or simply tired of sitting around doing nothing, I'd like to encourage you to grab a walking stick, and some comfortable footwear (or leathery bare feet if you are of the Hobbit-y persuasion), and if your voice is up to the task, join me in my walking songs.  I'm excited to be on this journey, and would love some company on the road.